Week 3 - Day 1: Can I haz popcorn now?

I didn't lose any weight this past week... I didn't gain any back, so that's a plus. But not seeing the change on the scale really has me feeling like, "Why am I torturing myself for nothing?" I mean seriously, there is a box a popcorn just calling my name. I'm tired from working two jobs (one that has me waking before the sun), and my doctor is talking about ordering x-rays to investigate the mystery pain in my hip. Why not give in and just go eat something sweet and tasty.

And then I think...

• I can go eat that popcorn, but then I can't feel bad or be surprised when the scale goes back up to 160lbs.
• I just ordered more food from Medifast. If I don't stick with the plan then I'm wasting money.
• Since I started Medifast again, my TRAPS symptoms have cleared up. If I go eat a bunch of crap, then the chances are it will cause a flare up and then I will feel like crap. I need to stick with the plan until I reach my goal weight and then slowly add other food back in to determine what food triggers my TRAPS Syndrome.
• This is hard, but I'm not going to be on it forever.

I haven't been picturing my goal weight lately, and I think that's part of the problem.

I started at 160lbs.

1st goal -> Get under 150lbs (Right now, I'm 151.5lbs)

2nd goal -> Get to 142lbs (140 scares me, it seems so far away. 145 seems lazy, like I'm not trying hard)

3rd goal -> Get to 138lbs and evaluate self (I really want to get under 140. When I was just above 140 before I was able to do my 90min runs easily. If I get under 140lbs and feel happy with the way I look then I will evaluate if I think it is a good time to start transitioning off Medifast)

Transitioning Goal -> Discover what food triggers TRAPS

Emotion Report - To be honest, a bit depressed. I'm tired and sore, both physically and emotionally. I ate a Bison Burger with Broccoli (pan-cooked in Newman's Light Italian dressing) on the side. I think I will take my ZZZquil pills early tonight and try to get plenty of rest to get through tomorrow. 

Oh, and my Medifast food order didn't show up today like the tracker said it would. I guess because of the holiday. If it doesn't arrive tomorrow I may experience varying levels of frustration.