Day 4: Do Not Look

I worked from 7am -3pm today, when I got home I hoped on the computer and began to work on assignments for my other job. That's right, I have two jobs... Because I'm broke and student loans suck. Actually, I had to get a second job because my first job barely gives me 10 hours a week, but because it's the "Foot in the Door" industry job, I can't quit it yet.

I did good with plan today. My lean and green was a spinach salad with my yummy Balsamic dressing, and 7oz of ground bison smashes into a pattie. I ate it with a pickle spear and pretended it was a burger. I actually didn't mind not having a bun because the bison was so yummy.

I started my period today, so I feel crampy, bloated, and moody. I had to tell myself several times NOT to weigh myself. It's only been five days, and I'm retaining water like a camel in the desert, AND it's evening so my stomach and other internal things are full of stuff. Monday morning will come soon enough for me to check my weight. I don't feel any change yet, but this is only week one. I'd have been very shocked to find my pants suddenly loose on me. I know it doesn't work that way, but darn it, why isn't there a magic trick to make me lose weight so I can have frozen yogurt again?! I'm still finding myself wanting to eat to avoid feeling. I don't like feeling stressed or sad, and I know that the food didn't take these emotions away. All food did was distract me from dealing with them.

I think tonight I'm going to start rereading The Happiness Project. Once I finish rereading it, I'll start her second book Happier at Home (which I bought months ago and haven't touch since). Maybe I'll find some sage advice in those pages that will help me not want to turn to food.