Month 2 - Week 2 - Day 6: Off Plan... Again

In preparation for the overnight I have to work tomorrow, I stayed up last night (this morning) until 6am. I was able to sleep until 2:30 pm but I woke up a bunch of times because of the light coming through my blinds.

I've solved that problem by hanging some heavy curtains over my windows, sealing out all light. Tonight after I get home from my closing shift, I will once again need to stay up until 6am, then I can take my sleeping pills, and I hope sleep soundly until 3 or 4pm Sunday.

I'm trying to use the late hours to work on revising my manuscript, but it's hard to focus when you are so tired. I wound up drinking like 5 cups of black tea (with stevia and lactose free milk) last night just to keep from passing out. I have a feeling it will be the same tonight. I'm not really a night owl. I tend to get physically ill from staying up too late. Even now, after staying up late and then sleeping a good 7 hours I feel a bit shaky.

I not on plan, which make me feel a bit disappointed. I was really hoping to not break plan this month, but the steroids make it impossible. I need more calories and carbs to deal with the hunger pains. I'm not going to eat fast food, and I'm going to do my best to stop, challenge, and choose the best food options until I'm off my meds and able to safely get back on plan.