Week 4 - Day 3: Grandma's love is bad for diets

I broke my diet yesterday (it was my birthday). Today, I was going to title this post "Back in the Saddle" for getting back on plan... only, I went to my grandma's today... and she made my favorite... tortillas.

I wish I could stay that I stayed strong. But that would be a very large lie. I did good earlier this week when my mom came home with tortillas, but I totally caved today.

This is why you should never break plan! It's so hard to get back in the right mental state. Tomorrow, I will not cheat. Tomorrow, I will not cheat. Tomorrow, I will not cheat. Tomorrow. I. will. not. cheat.

This is why I do my best to avoid temptations. I don't open (or store any of my stuff in) the cupboard that holds the bags of popcorn. I ask the mom not to buy chips, or to store any of her snack food in my Medifast cupboard. I tell my friends that I can't meet them at restaurants or coffee houses. I don't have soda in the house.

But put me in my grandma's kitchen, with fresh baked tortillas (the day after my birthday), and apparently I'm doomed.

In other news, I'm back to submitting resumes and writing cover letters.

Oh... and I applied to the P.H.D program I looked into last year. $75 paid for the application fee. I need to investigate when/where/how to submit my transcripts and how many letters of recommendation I need. I'm also sure the will want me to write a letter of intent or something. Dear god, what have I done!? If I get in, that means three more years of schooling, more student loans (and more debt)... but it also means a great degree that I've always wanted, a degree that will help my career, and more knowledge.

Seriously, what have I done?!?