Week 2 - Day 5: Primal Urges

I've been feeling an urge to go running. It's a strange sensation of longing. A curious glance at the sunlight streaming in my window. I've only noticed the urge to run in the last few days. I had stopped running when my weight-gain triggered my asthma, and turning running into a laborious jog.

I've been resisting the urge to run, partially because I don't think I've lost enough weight to ease my asthma or joints, partially because I'm scared. I love running. When I was at my best I was running 4-6 times a week, and doing at least two 90 minutes runs a week. I know as long as I'm on Medifast, I can't run that much or that long, and I'm scared that if I go on a run and feel no asthma problems then I'll want to start running all the time again.

I'm an insomniac. The only time I feel relief is when I take ZZZquil pills before bed OR when I'm running multiple times a week. If I go on a run and then sleep well, I'll want to run more so that I can sleep well more.

What optimal health means to me is running 90 minutes at least twice a week. I'm not there yet, but I'm on my way.

Anyways, I'm still trying to complete things. Currently, I'm reading Sin and Syntax. My goal is to finish the book this weekend. Oh! And I want to put the licence plate frame that I've had for over a year on to my car. There is no excuse for not having this done. I bought it. I want it on my car. It bothers me that I haven't put it on my car.

I ate fish twice this week, by the way... I'm still not a fan. Tomorrow, I will cook salmon. I have other protein in the freezer as a backup, in case I can't stomach the pink fish.

Job interview went well today, up to the point where the recruited told me that the position was more of an Art lead and that I wasn't a good fit. I agreed. I'll find the right fit one of these days.